It's been a while since I posted a journal entry and that's mainly because I had nothing much to post about.

However...now I do!

If you've read my journal entry about the Cock Suck Queen file then you'll know something about my experience of being turned into a bit of a cum hungry cockslut by it. 
Wow! I can scarcely believe it's been about 15 years since then. 
In that time my love for cock sucking hasn't diminished and whilst I no longer actively pursue that side of my character, I have for a long time now considered myself bisexual as a result of that particular journey. I'm comfortable with that.

However, whilst I had experimented with going all the way with guys I've never really been comfortable being a bottom for anal sex. I only did it a couple of times and it was always either unsatisfactory or downright unpleasant. I've long since concluded that anal is just not for me.

This might be because in my sex life with my wife I'm very much the dominant one and being the passive person sexually didn't necessarily click with me. Perhaps that's why I consider the CSQ file to have been such a success. I will happily suck a guy off and have them shoot a load down my throat without so much as thinking about my own sexual release. The idea of 'servicing' a man as his submissive was always alien to me until that file got its hooks into me.

But...taking it in the ass was always a step too far.

So... that leads me to the reason for this post.

I was recently browsing Porn Hub and looking (as we do) for something different to grab my interest and I chanced upon a video of a guy having a hands free orgasm via prostate massage. The idea of this has always fascinated me and a few videos later I was starting to fall down the rabbit hole. My interest was piqued. I decided I really want to experience that!

Now, I'm aware achieving a prostate orgasm isn't easy and would take a bit of research and practice (especially given my aversion to the way anal feels).
I decided to return to this site after more than a decade and see if I could get some hypnotic assistance. 
After a bit of time searching I found the file Anal Only Sissyslut. It seems that the majority of files on here that are geared towards anal orgasms (aka Sissigasms) are there for people who want to be sissified. I'm also aware that my mind won't accept suggestions I really don't want so was pretty comfortable I wasn't about to be sissified or end up only able to cum by taking it up the ass. We take the suggestions we want and no more. 
The thing that interested me about this one though is that one of its major functions was to enhance the ability to cum from prostate stimulation. 
As you might know from my previous journal entry I'm notoriously bad at going into deep trance anyway so I was fully aware that I was safe from any harmful effects and also that this was a long shot., but I was willing to give it a go.

So, I found some quiet time, put my headphones in, turned out the lights and played the file.

The first thing to say is that the file is a computer generated female voice. At first I thought this would put me off, but it actually achieved the opposite. Because it was monotone and matter of fact it stopped my doing that thing I usually do of judging the delivery of the script, or trying to imagine what the hypnotist looks like. It stopped a large amount of my critical thinking. I was clearly able to switch off because I have literally no memory of what was said at all. I think I might have lasted a minute or two before I was under.

I would of course usually put the lack of memory down to simply falling asleep, but the fact I came out of it to the words 'fully aware and fully awake' seemed to suggest I might have actually gone under.

I was kind of excited about the prospect that I might have actually been properly deeply hypnotised for maybe the first time (CSQ was a light trance for me).

I decided to listen back to the file again but this time just the parts after the induction so I could hear what suggestions were given. It was a weird experience to have to listen again to know what suggestions my mind had been given!

It took a minute or two to find the part where the induction ends and the reprogramming begins (it's a very nicely written file that flows quite well) but I found it and sat on the bed to listen. 
The suggestions were pretty intense, maybe a bit more than I'd expected but that wasn't what grabbed my attention most. The file keeps referring to you as 'Sissyslut'. The more this term was used the more it felt like it might have been a trigger installed (which I found out later as I listened through that it was). It basically just got me really excited to fuck my ass.

A quick visit to my bedside drawer to get my wife's vibrator and some lube and I was off to the bathroom. I continued to listen to the rest of the file as I experimented.
Hearing the suggestions as I was playing certainly led me even then to conclude the file had worked in a big way. Perhaps a little better than I'd intended.

The experience of hearing the computer generated voice say 'you never miss a chance to fuck your ass. Even now, you are probably fucking your ass' as I crouched on the bathroom floor pumping the vibrator in and out of my 'hungry little fuck hole' was incedibly humbling. However, as much as really didn't want to have a trigger installed that gives me the desire to fuck myself i can't help but find the whole experience super exciting.  

It's 3 days later now and there's much more to say about the effects of this file but I'll put that in future journal entries. I need to stop now because writing this has once again given me an urge that needs to be tended to.

Bloo