Hi Journal,

So I have decided, with F's knowledge abd blessing, to recount a few of the memorable times that F and I have gone through over the past few years since I last posted regular updates. As I previously mentioned, I dont keep any secrets from F anymore. Not since I told her about why my dick stopped working and that my intension all along was for her to cuckold me. Those of you that have read my previous jounal entries will know that we split up and got back together again. We live as a normal married married couple with some interesting twists and I love my Wife all the more for it. Unfortunately I dont have many of the text messages anymore so any reference I make to them will be purley from memory and from recounting them through conversation with F. F has access to this site and also all of my other social media accounts, so anything that I write here and anywhere else is with full disclosure.

As a bit of back ground to future posts, not only does F now cuckold me frequently but we also live in a full Female led relationship meaning that F has taken on a  Dominent role in our marriage and I have filled the role of a submissive husband. One of the key changes that we made when we got back together was that our home loan was transfered into Her name, and that my salary is now paid into her bank account. F transfers spending money into my account at the start of the month for me to use for incidentals. Part of the agreement in our marriage is that I am now responcible for doing all the house work, grocery shopping and maintenance of our home. Another stricked rule that F has put on me is that I wear a chastity cage at all times when I am away from home, This is the case be it for more than a few hours to when I travel for work. I am no longer allowed to pleasure myself without her explicite permission, and the only release that I get sexually is through anal stimulation or supervised masterbation using a vibrator as my penis doesnt get anywhere near hard anymore, I am also required to be completedly shaved from the eyes down and I am to only wear womens underwear. F has thrown out all of my male undies so this has become the norm for me even if I am going to Dr's appointments. Before anyone comments, I do this willingly and have no objection to any of the above at all. It is what we chose and we are extremely happy right now.

F on the other hand has total freedom to do anything and see anyone that She pleases, We have confided in a few of her close friends, male and Female, as well as Her 2 sisters, as we dont want people to see Her out with another man and jump to conclusions. As far as anyone that knows us is conserned, F is in an open marriage due to my impotence.

As mentioned in my last jounal update F still sees Andrew on the odd occation due to him living in another city, but She does have other men that she meets from time to time. She is also free to see anyone whenever and where ever she feels the need. As far as our own sexual relationship goes, I only ever perform oral sex on F. This could be a few times a week or very seldome, depending on how F is feeling or what Her requirements are. Oral on Her is never initiated by me and F has agreed signs and little gestures that indicate to me that She needs me to go down on Her. These can be first thing in the morning, to when She gets home from work, to while She is having dinner or watching TV to last thing in the evening while She is reading Her book just before lights out at night. I am always on call and always ready to serve. For me, my release is always supervised and sometimes timed, because it can take me a long time to have an orgasm. F will start a timer and if I haven't orgasmed in a pre determined time, I am told to stop. I am usually given 5 minutes, but sometimes, depending on Her mood, this can be reduced to less than 2 minutes. My ejaculate is almost always flushed away but sometimes F will enjoy making me clean up my own mess, be it from the floor, my hand, Her hand or feet or from a shot glass.

A final note for this update is that since I went down on F when She returned from that night with Andrew, I am always required to go down on Her when She gets home from a date. Whether She has been intemate with that person or not. Another ritual we have is that if F has been intimate with someone, when She gets home, I have to kneel infront of her and remove Her panties and to put them on so that I can feel her wetness directly. It also indicates that I have an imidiate duty to perform.

More to come.