Ok, i've realized that i've failed to update this blog for almost an entire week. I know it probably doesn't matter, since this is only a personal log, but nonetheless i feel bad for not keeping up with my committment. You see, i've always been a D/L, diaper lover, and in fact love to wear them whenever possible. Im not really into the whole AB thing, but i do find many aspects exciting. I dont know what it is, but i absolutely love to wear diapers, to feel the thick, thirsty, bulky garment surround my loins. I think its the security I like, the idea that i can go potty whenever i want and don't have to worry about. But i dont really want to be incontinent. For obvious reasons that condition can prevent numerous obstacles and i feel it somewhat belittles the plight of millions of people who are really inflicted with this illness. What i do want, so bad, so strong, is to become a bedwetter. To lose control of my bladder at night everytime that i sleep. I've had little to no success over the past wk. I've worn diapers 24/7 now for two wks minus only one day. I've done this mainly to shrink my bladder capacity, which i think has worked to some degree. It's also a conveince at the present moment, since i just recently broke my foot. Over the past two weeks, my bladder capacity has greatly diminished, yet i still haven't wet my bed..I have, however, had two genuine accidents since being diapered 24/7. The first is kinda gross so i won't get into it really. Basically I wasn't wet at all and tried to hold off soiling for a while but by the time i got to get up it was too late. The second time I was coming home from class. I had to pee during class but for some reason couldn't let go. Class ended and as I grabbed my books, i began chatting wiht a friend of mine. we continued to talk as i gathered up my things. I eventually grabbed my crutches and we walked out of the class and down the hall still talking. at this time, i totally forgot about the need to peepee and just keep on talking. About halfway down the hall, as my friend was in the middle of a statement while bending over the drinking foutain, i felt my crotch get warm, I instantly though to gaze down but remembered that i was safely diapered. I pretended as if nothing was wrong as i continued to wet myself in front of my friend and many others in the hall way.... Anyways...i going to keep trying ...hopefully...with enough training.....i can do it!