so last night i listened to TrainSusceptible, Induction and Deepening.

TrainsSusceptible worked really well i found. i think i went deeper than before. so tonight i'm going to listen to it again and a real file (well one with stuff that happens...maybe TrainSlave1).

there are a few 'rituals' i now do before i start listening to the files. a few simple stretches, just to get rid of kinks, and to just relax me further, and i make sure my room is dark.

i still don't think i'm going completely under, it'd be nice if i had someone here to guide me through it, just to make sure i'm really going under or just relaxing a lot and...kind of...'playing along' 'cause i want it to happen.

that's really one of my biggest concerns, that i just go along with it 'cause i want it to be true.