Last night, after listening to my whole regimen of TrainTotalJock files, I plopped down on the floor and did a load of push ups and sit ups. My mind was totally empty of anything outside the moment, a wave of sudden agression was the only thing that was spuring me on. Still, it didn't last the next day. It's like it'd never happened as far as my personality goes. I will try again tonight. I'm still conflicted about what would happen if all this actually worked out though. My 23rd is coming up, and while I want to be a dumb jock, I also want to be a sucessful so-and-so in a far more intellectually demanding profession. The jock stuff still feels very much like a side fantasy than anything I'll actually get to happen. I guess either way I'd get something I'd want. If I had more will power, I know I could do both.