I tried CurseSissyMaid the other day. It was really funny... afterwords, for a few minutes, I was crawling around on my hands and knees trying to clean things. I felt just like Maggie Gyllenhaal in Secretary (awesome move). I am so tempted to try CursePunishment but I don't understand it. Is it an immaginary Master, or a real person I have to convince? I really have to do it every day and stay bound (again-immaginary?) for 30 minutes? I wonder if it would really hurt. I wonder if I'd scream. I'll have to examine the forums. A year ago, I read some of the Gor series. Boy, that's a life-altering couple of books. I bought Slave Girl of Gor when I was about 13, but I never read it. Now I wonder how my life would've been different if I had. Would I have more confidence around women? Would I already be in jail for assault? Could I find a girl or convince a girl to like the series and try role-playing? I can't tell if I'd rather be the slave or the master. I want to say slave. The books make it sound so attractive. If I stay a male, I might as well try thinking like a master. Now that I've read them, it's too late to go back. I just read an article, http://www.viewzone.com/homosexual.html (I hope that shows up) that completely convinced me homosexuality is biological. The funny thing is, I don't know what that says about me. I don't really think I am gay. I like women's clothing and I look at women with more jealousy than lust. But I also know sex with females is more pleasureable (but sex as a female most pleasurable of all). These hypnotism files may help me make up my mind, but I have to take the plunge and choose one. I suppose I'll go for down-the-middle bisexual and reprogram myself if I ever hook-up.