It's been five days since I registered to WMM, so I thought now would be a good time to recap my experiences thus far.

I downloaded a number of files, maybe a score or so, primarily feminization and self-help files that I found intriguing. These were mostly triggers. Training files were confined to enable me to achieve a deeper trance. I stayed away from the curses, as I am not ready for any changes of permanency.

The first couple of days, I tinkered with TrigFemaleForm getting very minor results and LRFemaleOrgasm, which I must admit was quite exhilirating. This reinforced my beliefs I was getting into trance with some success. I proceeded to research some of the forums and journals to see what adjustments I can make to get better results. Some of the entries were most enlightening.

By the third day, I decided on a specific regimen of files, which goes as follows: upon waking up, I loop the Suggestible file while I have my AM coffee, read the sports and news on the web and work on my writing projects. I then listen to Deepening2 in order to allow myself to fall into deeper trances*. After Deepening2, it's time for the trigger file I have chosen, TrigWoman2, which I listen to 3-4 times consecutively. I repeat the process before bed, also to include female dreams. Thus far, I have not done FemaleDreams in the morning as I have yet to remember any of my dreams upon waking up (this is a dilemna I've had for quite some time and might be an effect of some of my smoking habits).

The next couple of days showed mixed results. Some trances were more intense than others. TrigWoman2 also had it's moments. One in particular was most incredible and happened on the first day I took up the above mentioned regimen. Upon coming out of a trance after listening to TrigWoman2, slightly confused, I walked around my flat for a bit and went into the bathroom and started to brush my hair (it's already long) and shaping it in a feminine manner. Then I started thinking about my relationship status, or lack thereof, and uncontrolably broke down and cried. This was amazing as I am normally a rather stoic person who hides his emotions well. I have yet to reach that level since.

So now we are up to today and here are some observations. The recent lack of having the trigger work might be due to not getting completely comfortable where I place myself before starting a file. My furniture is not the best for this and this morning, pulled out one of those beach chairs that one can lay down on. I am hoping this allows me to relax in a more comfortable position.

Although at times it feels like my genitalia have altered, I have yet to hallucinate. Nor have I expected to at this early stage. I am aiming for the end of the month to occur. We shall see. I am not discouraged.

Should this eventually succeed, I intend to work on cutting down my smoking. This is all very experimental for me. It's time.

If anyone might have suggestions to aid me along, it would be considered and appreciated.

*There is a possibilty I have AADD, as I sometimes find my thoughts wandering onto other things, not only while I am trying to fall into a trance, but in conscious state, too. Something I should look into here sooner rather than later.

Cheers