Chapter 1

There are some nights that are just restless for me. Tonight is one of those nights. I stayed up too late chatting to random people and now… now I am restless.



Tonight, I followed a strangers orders. We talked and talked, and for one of the first times in my journey online I felt that connection. You know the one, the one that makes you want to obey and just keep talking and talking and talking. Him and I talked about what I want out of this D/s relationship and it was refreshing to have him be a sounding board for certain things that I still, at 26 years of age, have a hard time putting into words. Finally, when I knew I needed to sleep I said good night. His final words to me were “ Sleep sweet and naked tonight. No cumming :)”



Usually, when something like that was said I would ignore it. This person isn’t my Master, my Sir, my Dominant and I owe him nothing…but tonight… well… I am here doing what he told me to do. I actually can’t believe that I am. Unfortunately, I am horny as fuck and I can’t sleep. There is a part of me that wants to just wants to ignore the no cumming part, but something is holding me back.



This is how I know I am submissive. I want to please him. I want him to smile when he knows that I followed orders. But now that I can’t do my old faithful technique of giving myself an orgasm, how the hell do I fall asleep?