The beginning

Since I can remember I have always been into piss and not just piss as in yeah pissing feels really good I mean like seriously into it. As kid I was always having a feeling of euphoria whenever I took a leak, a pure feeling of joy that I always looked forward to. I remember going on a camping trip with my dad and I can honestly say that that was the beginning of me truly starting to understand just what it meant to enjoy one self.

I apologize, I have so many thoughts on the matter, so many thoughts that my mind is somewhat jumbled with everything that I want to say. A lot of these little tidbit stories are just moments in my life that have come and gone and also things I have thought about a lot. So if it doesn't flow as well as it should that is why.

It was a very long time ago but I remember it vividly. Long story short (maybe I'll post the longer story another time) but it was late at night I was a kid, my dad was pretty drunk and we were camping. I really needed to pee but we were in the woods and I was scared and I wanted my dad to go out with me. He told me it was too late and that should go outside by myself like a big kid or I should just pee in my sleeping bag and then go back to bed and we will worry about it in the morning. I tried to hold out as best as I could but before I could give in myself I heard a "hissing" sound. My dad was pissing in his own sleeping bag beside me and then I did the same. That was probably the first time I had on purpose pissed myself and my "bed" and it felt wonderful. Oddly enough and also pretty understandable at the same time but me and my dad never spoke of that night ever again. Maybe he didn't remember it, maybe he has repressed it but it has always stuck out in my mind as something I vividly remember so I know it happened wheter or not I have any actual proof of it. Sadly though due to many circumstances my dad and our relationship has gotten worse over the years to the point that we don't actually talk any more.

As a 33 year old man, who still is exploring his piss fetish and also his own dirty urges I just know that deep down there is more to this pissing thing than I realize. Here is just a thought. If you want to piss the bed because you get some kind of joy out of it whether it's a relief of tension or a sexual thrill then go for it! It's your life, you aren't harming anyone by doing it. If you choose not to protect the mattress again your choice just know it will be expensive to replace them so often but yes it could he even more fun not being so prepared. There are lots of alternatives for protection you just gotta be resourceful and creative. Hell I'm not a bedwetter at all but just by talking to so many online guys about it I have so many ideas as to how to do it and protect the mattress and clean up as well. In closing whether you do it very often or every night don't feel too bad about it... There are way worse things that happen in the world, why stress about something so minor.