Chapter 1

We have been trying really hard to find some new things to try in our Ds relationship. I have always had a bit of a thing for diapers but the ABDL dynamic doesnt interest me at all.

I mentioned it to Master expecting him to recoil in horror at the suggestion, but nope, that evil grin i love so much spread across his face and i knew then that this is something that we could fulfil.

This was maybe a month ago now, since then i have been made to wear diapers with stuffers in when at home and when i go out I have to wear pullups with one stuffer inside. Making me aware competely the whole time of what i look like and incredivbly paranoid that anyone would be able to see them, i know this is ourely in my mind as i take great care to wear long shirts etc so that nobody would be able to see.

However when im at home i have to wear diapers with at least 2 stuffers so they are super thick and obvious. Master usually allows me to wear pyjamas over the top but sometimes tells me I am only allowed to wear my diapers in front of him to add to my humilaition. My favourite time is when I only have my thick diapers on and put into my cage (we have an extra large dog crate.)  i can feel my face burning as im made to be in my cage with only my diapers on and nowehere to hide from his gaze, he laughs at me which he knows only adds to my deepening submission and humiliation. 

Most days im allowed to use the toilet whenever i need to but increasingly he tells me that im not allowed to use the toilet within certain times of the day and i havge to use my diapers, im only allowed to use the toilet for defacating.

I am plugged almost all the time now with only a few hours at a time in between where i can have a break. This was a mutual goal for me and we will be purchasing a Meo 24/7 plug soon, this will be used permanently as soon as i can handle it, so that i am ready for Masters use at all times, whenever he decides to use me that way. Im assuming that my diapers will be needed even more if he decided to keep the closing plug out of the Meo plug..... part of me doesnt want to be succeptible to that but the other part of me loves the control that would be taken away from me if he decides im not allowed to have the closing plug in.

I enjoy it this way and always want more and succumbing to our sick pleasures. I am always grateful for the attention i am given from Master and listening to hypnosis files that he asks of me, i can feel myself changing my mindset to a lot of different things. I have always been relatively stubborn, but especially wearing diapers and being forced to use them in the way that Master wants, deepens my submission to him and it takes all of the control away for such a simple bodily function. 

Whatever Master wants, he gets. I have given away every bit of control I had to him and I am here to take whatever he wants to give me like a good little fucktoy.

Feeling myself letting go into my diaper, feeling the warmth surrounding me is amazing, i never though i would give in to these desires that have been there for years but ive never dared to mention it before. i crave to be degraded by Master and being forced to use diapers in the way he chooses does just that.

It allows me to feel numb and calm without any stress at all, just the way Master wants me to be. Master likes to remind me how worthless i am and that i have to wear diapers as he doesnt trust me not to have accidents. He alos lies to remind me that having diapers on is like a chastity device, i cant touch my diaper at all or he says i will have to have locking pants on me when i wear them, i dont think i would want this but i darent risk touching them just in case. 

He has told me several times that he might one day lock the plastic pants onto me with a nice big plug inside my ass and leave for work, keeping me locked up for the full day until he comes home, having no choice but to use the diapers as he wants, naturally making sure that i had enough padding and absorbancy to last me for the full day. Making me waddle and try my best to hide it from anyone who may come to the door. 

Master once put my cage into the cold and dark garage and locked me inside, diapered,plugged, naked and gagged.

He put a cctv camera in there so he could keep an eye on me and came out every now and again, humiliating me and facefucking me. He left me there for hours until i couldnt think properly and was a shell of my former self from a few hours before. Knowing that i was not worthy to be able to think for myself and deepening my love for my enslavement to Master. i wet my diapers several times whilst in my cage as before that he made me drink 2 litres of water throughout the hour before i went in my cage. i didnt know it at the time as he took me to the garage without me knowing what was going to happen. I love to be twisted, changed and controlled by him. Told how fucked up and pathetic i am, he is the nicest person iv ever met but when he lets his sadistic side out, it allows me to know how low i am in comparison to him and that i am worthless.