so tonight i had a wonderful experience with tanya-squirrel she took me under and helped me to wet in my diaper without control and just let it flow out. This is one of the only times i've ever followed suggestion as closely and just ended up leaking into my diaper continuously. This marks the first step on a journey into my loss of control. I thank tanya-squirrel so much for letting me experience this twisted desire. I'm so happy and excited, I only wish I could repay her somehow :)