I'm being put in my place. (Thank you Master.) Everything I want now I can only receive by my Master's choice. (I need this lesson, Master.) I am constantly excited and checking my messages since yesterday when Master promised to take my mind via email. I recognize that no matter what I do, the schedule for my destruction is in His hands. I think this makes me want the destruction more. My Master's decision to use surprise keeps me constantly on edge - wanting and hoping but never able to demand, or even use tricks to gain His attention. I know I will be very grateful when He finally chooses to take me down a little more. I am at His mercy. No - it is at His mercy. Sounds good, right? (I am learning, Master.)