So, because WMM isn't necessarily a perfect fit (it's probably rare for pre-recorded audio files to be a perfect fit for anyone, which is why I'm in awe and utterly impressed both by EMG's wide appeal and those who have found EMG's files to be very effective), I do spend some time actively looking for that perfect "turn me into a jock" file.

I'm a hard trancer. I've probably experienced a "real" trance (in the sense of being in a suggestible state under the guidance of someone else) once or twice in my life, after about a decade of being a follower of erotic and transformative hypno. I've always figured that if I could reach that point enough times, it would eventually become easier for me, especially if I could ever find a 'tist who I trusted and who understood my goals and desires (whether those desires are known to me or not).

I'd recently found a file (NOT by EMG or anyone affilliated with this site) that seemed to be working, in that after listening to it a few times, I was getting deeper. Even without the trance, I was eager to follow most of its suggestions, and the post-hypnotic deepener (a post-hypno phrase to be used to get me instantly as deep as before), as hidden in the file's induction part, was actually affecting me.

So, because the file's creator has been explicit about wanting people to IM him, I did so, to thank him for the file, and to let him know about my progress. Without warning, he filled the screen with the trigger phrase, the deepener.

At the time, the television was playing some loud show with annoying music in the background, I had another IM window open, and in general I was distracted. The phrase had an effect on me, but because of the mitigating circumstances, I quickly shut it out. I messaged the guy back to let him know that I had to turn off the TV and eliminate some other distractions. I didn't get a response from him right away, so I waited. After about 10 minutes, I sent a "you there?" message, and he eventually responded with a "be right back" reply.

After about an hour (I spent the time doing other things), after no further contact, I closed the window.

And now, I find I have no taste for his files.

Why should I listen to someone who would, after filling the screen with a phrase designed to coerce someone into trance, disappear with barely an explanation or attempt to debrief? What if I had gone into trance, but had given him the wrong reply? What if, after working with him, he decided to pull the same thing while I was even deeper?

I'm really pissed off, because I feel like his files had the best chance of working for me, out of many of the files I've seen online. Even while I actively play with altering my consciousness, I care about who I am, and I don't want to put that into the hands of someone who is careless.

Part of my erotic thrill in this mindcontrolling business is the idea of being surprised, but I don't really want the surprise to be "Oops."

Anyway, I feel like I ought to talk with this guy and let him know the deal. Let him know that if he plans to spring a hypno session on me, the least he can do is follow up. He's got a dozen guys asking for his services, and there's no reason why he should care about me, except that I'm one of those people who gives everything he has into something. This guy wants jocks at his beck and call? I'm already a jock - I'm a serious player at my sport, despite my being new, and am respected as such by my team - I'm just waiting for someone I can trust.