This afternoon I was happy to find a new CD from my master. Jau media....hee-hee. I'm very eager to listen to it but I'm going to wait untill tonight to do so. I plan to listen to the new CD first and if I'm awake I'll listen to the first one. Last night: I lay in my bed tired from the day and with a little irritation to my eyes (I had watched three movies back to back and then two hours of MASH). I put the head phones in and listen to my cd as usual. Well ok lets rewind a little. I turned off the tv, then the lights. Turned my desk light on and prayed. After that I walked to my desk put my collar on and went to my knees. I turned the desk light off and crawled into bed (litterly) then after growling at my rats to quiet them down I listen to my CD. I felt a little hyper that night so I was having a little trouble relaxing to the music file. I guess too many action movies or something. As the voice of my Master whispered into my ear I relaxed and stopped moving all together. I wasn't moving or resisting but I was more 'awake' then I normally am. I remember thinking "I'm going to have to listen to this all over again to put me out" that was the last thought I recall before waking up this morning. I think knowing that I'm supposed to forget is letting me be more aware but the fact it slips past my conscience mind theres not much I can do about it. Which is just perfect for me. Oh and thank you, Master. I now have the lyrics to Suicide is painless stuck in my head. (grr) ~Patches~