So, I've still been the same as my last update so far as my overall personality is concerned. This last week was great - tech support job on phone/chat and going out and looking cute at night. I think I've been at my happiest as of late like this, since I'm a lot less intense with my work and more sensitive to my "cute girlfriend" side. I've actually been sleeping so well at night now that I've have not ran my hypnosis loop since the end of Spring break.

Regardless, there have been some things I noticed: When I first started all of this out of curiosity, I went around for almost....two months(?) as a walking bimbo cock-sleeve. Once the holidays ended and my trance broke, I felt "normal" again, but extreme sexual sensitivity and a less-guarded personality remained with me......both I'm happy with.

Recently, I bimbo'd out again over Spring break, and now that THAT trance broke for whatever reason, my boobs are a bit more full and perky (can orgasm straight off of them alone now too) - which is also great. I'm 100% confident I could hold my own in a relationship, and yet still please the hell out of any BF I'd be with at this point.....so I'd say I'm in a good place with all that, and the hypnosis stuff was worth it.

Unfortunately, there seems to have been side-effects to this whole process too. Even since my first bimbo trance, my memory just up and disappeared. At this point, I only remember holidays and one or two random things that have happened since about October or so. Even Feb. and March are a blur.

After this Spring break trance though, I've been noticing some nastier stuff over the last few days. First of all, the trancing had been working so well, that I'm concerned and fairly convinced that I'll go 200% bimbo if properly fucked. Secondly, I'm worried that I'm going to go back to being a complete bimbo every holiday break now.

Other side-effects that have been occurring.....the most annoying is the urge to run my loop, or even write something about myself on here since it happens at the weirdest times. While I have not had any sexual urges since my last post, there was actually an evening where I was lying in bed trying to sleep, and started hearing suggestions in my head to "comply" and run my file loop.....I WAS NOT in control of my body, yet fell asleep soon enough after.

I'm wondering if running this stuff on my player for the few months that I have has ~finally~ left a permanent imprint on my subconscious. Before, I could think of something slutty or whatever and determine it was me remembering the hypnosis file, but NOW when I think about something odd, it feels like one of my own organic thoughts.

Last night, I was randomly being shown someone else's bachelorette party photos, and one of the girls were sucking on a dildo. I don't own anything like that myself (fingers work well enough, and I want to spend on a quality product), yet the moment I saw that picture, I started getting lightheaded, I felt a little flushed, my breathing got a bit sharper, and my heart rate went up. Out of nowhere, the desire hit me (and has kinda stuck since) that "it would be great to be sucking on a nice juicy cock"........there's this feeling or sensation in my mouth and throat that ~something~ should be there - and like I said before, it feels like this is one of my own organic thoughts & it's a little.....distracting.

Wrapping this all up, the major lingering effects of the hypnosis so far.....I feel its made me a better person, & more importantly, good girlfriend material, but I'm still concerned that a ghost of a "walking cock-sleeve" has been created inside me from all of this......and I'd rather not just be an object to be used, regardless of being in control or not. I wouldn't go so far as to say I've accidentally created a second personality or anything, but my subconscious absolutely feels like it's different.

I'll try to update again soon, & do feel free to comment here or ask stuff via PM. I won't chat outside of this site though (for safety). If anyone is interested in my bimbo-washing cocktail, check out "My Favorite" files in my profile - the Curse Bimbo and SLUT Core/Remix seem to have been the good ones to start with & are great for breaking you in to start trancing........just remember that the whole list is for girls and not guys~ :D