A PM convo with another user actually pulled up some thoughts & things from the abyss of my mind that I figured I would be better of posting here, so here it goes:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Analysis_paralysis

I'm not sure I can completely say that I still am, but I always used to be a bit of a perfectionist. I'd run myself into the ground, especially during college, to make sure that I was generally popular and always aiming for a high GPA. I tended to over-think things too a lot of times, and it would usually end in some kind of torture where I was tightly wound and running on few hours of sleep so as to cram everything into my waking hours and still succeed.

At some point, I think I just got sick of feeling like that. My tendency to over-think also made getting hypnosis to work really hard since I'd question and analyse everything being said - eventually I figured out that TTS voices worked better on me since they sounded robotic, and really repetitive, sneaky subliminal stuff tends to work best on me. ~Now~ I'm so used to messing with audio files and such (at bedtime) that my mind automatically clears - I'm not exactly sure when it started happening or why, but it seems like anything I'm currently thinking washes out & my mind is empty and blank the second something triggers me in my "receiving" mode (even during the day)......I have no will to think for myself or resist at that point.

At the very least, I don't have so much trouble getting stuck like on the Wikipedia page these days. I just DO things, whether I realise it or not I guess, both happily and willingly. Though, I'm still vocal about my indecision on the logical front. Ultimately, I hate the thought of getting stuck in a cycle of over-thinking things like before......like I said in my last journal post, it's actually been so long since I've started the dumb bimbo thing that I honestly can't remember feeling all of that junk from back then, but I guess some part of me still remembers it and I DO NOT want it starting again.

I love being a good girl and obeying my programming - thinking about things is bad, and I should be letting someone smarter make choices for me~ :D