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It Might Be Starting

by izatga88

Short update, but....

If I'm in a sexual mood & buzzed about some hot guy or just generally want some stimulation or something, I simply feel a little hot an anxious, but then there is THIS. I had it last night, and now I have it again too. On top of that other stuff, it feels like the more sensitive parts of my body are vibrating.....I'm getting wet and my mind starts racing through sexual fantasies.....then ultimately, I have a hard time thinking about anything else and my head feels like it's floating a few feet above the rest of my body.

It might be that my withdrawal is starting.

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- zapnosis

Are you going for it, Iz? Clear head, fresh start? Have you decided?

- rw789

Her player broke, Zap, she mentioned it in her last journal some place. So it's kinda forced upon her.

- izatga88

Obviously I'm going to have to come up with a replacement for it at some point.

I just can't believe that withdrawal from all of this hypnosis and conditioning stuff actually happens like this. Ya, I get that feeling good sexually would become addicting after a time & the body would flip out upon missing its stimulus, but to go out of control and ramp the effects of what I've already programmed myself with is weird.

The feeling has been getting more intense as the day's gone on too.

- jeffery

how are you feeling now? everything okay?

- zapnosis

Sorry, Iz, I didn't realise that getting a replacement was a problem. I reckon the horniness and rush of fantasies might be your subconscious mind trying to replace the conditioning. Also be aware of the fact that you may become more suggestible from time to time as you go through this, which is a good reason for me to leave speculation there.

- izatga88

Gee....thanks....that's going to get my mind wandering.

I just woke up - I've been fighting the giggles off since a bit before I went to bed last night. I also noticed when I woke up my that chest seemed a bit larger.....I must have been playing & teasing myself all night.

- Whimsical

Could you just listen to the files on your laptop/desktop?

- izatga88

On one of those awesome/rare days like today, yes - I get to stay home & nobody is around to bother me. It's usually a hassle to get my headphones working on my PC (the outlet on the PC doesn't work right). Overall, I usually just liked it a lot more listening as I lay in bed, but listening while zoning out and working from my PC works fairly well too.

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